Life.

I'm going to be talking about my life at home.For some reason.O.O

First of all I keep thinking my parents frigging hate each other to death.Why?Cause they like...argue like.....EVERY day. It doesn't matter if it's a small thing or a big thing. They will pretty much ARGUE over it. --.--.And I feel like I'm adopted.I don't know why...But i just have this meditocore feeling that I am adopted.I don't know.And when I'm at home I just feel like constantly sad.....I can't express it.Like it has to be bottled up in my heart FOREVER!! Well crying when I'm sad is helpful.But I still hold in many of my tears.Why? You may ask.Well because I don't want anyone know I go through this.Well not my family.I can never express really express who I am in my own home.(=*O*=)Also when my family is with me....I have to like....110% best behavior.It's like I pretty much I have to be a "Lil Miss Perfect" every second of my life....with my family.

My friend is like my other family.x] they're truly awesome.You can be yourself.Nobody else.Just have to be yourself.I guess I'm really really really really depressed...But because of my friends I guess I'm not that depressed I guess. Though I can't say that we get a long 100% of the times,we pretty much get a long pretty well.Anyways.....deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep inside me I feel so depress.Maybe because I have never expressed my feelings.I don't know.But I can feel the deep inside me I am depress.=O

My life is pretty much horrible except for my friends.They rule.x3 .Uh huh thats like the summary of my whole life.Pretty boring right?Thats because it is!!My family so complicated.
It's like the complication will NEVER end.It will last on for eternity!!! =*[

As you can see....I doubt on things a lot on my family.Yeah I know it should be the other around.I shouldn't be doubting my family.BLAH BLA BLAH BLA BLAH BLA!!!! Okay's if you know situation I am in.You'll know what it's like.And maybe you would have probably have the same feeling I am feeling right now.

But in my life...I am living in hell.Though the "HELLNESS" in my life may eased off a little bit.The hell ness in my life would live in my shadow ....until the day I die.(>=*O*=<) Yeah I know I may sounds frigging crazy or I have mental retardness or I have lost my mind.But I haven't.My mind is clear.;] -Chris P.S : I don't like being called Christina.So uh....don't call me that!!I just feel like my name is like way TOO long so I like it shorten.;]